Chasing the “right” goal.

My mom told me today that a secondary school senior of mine is a BuzzFeed star.

She found out through Google feeds.

That’s cool.

She’s got 536k subscribers.

And I look at my channel.

Yes, I’ve got a channel

The number stands at 357.

357 views from 39 subscribers.

I think I can do better.

I just need to pick up the camera I’ve left off 6 months ago.

I just need to start writing the script for my next video.

I just need to get to searching the next keyword to rank in.

In fact, I’ve had this conversation multiple times in the past 4 years.

I dreamt that I could maintain a YouTube channel talking about pursuing a career in research, maybe extend into an online business selling courses on SPSS, and running a community helping young researchers find ways to get into the field.

But it never hit me how absurd my envy was.

What if I had 536k subscribers.

What if my next video went viral.

What if I was a BuzzFeed star.

Would I be happy?

Hell yes, you bet.

Is that what I need though?

Probably not.

So it’s time to re-do the data entry for my endovascular therapy intervention strategy study.

Publishing that paper in 6 month’s time is what I need.

And it’s time to get down to doing the research I’m dreaming to get done.